Between you and him

I see you crying and I wonder,

I wonder if I’m still your child,

Or maybe I’m now your friend,

I want to give you console

I want you to forget,

To love yourself

I want to show you, demonstrate

You’re still my mom, you’re still a woman.

I look at you and I see

How the years passed by

And you gave him everything you had

Youth, love, hopes, trust, life

I see how you turned into a rose

Fading, dying, vanishing

And how he, my dad, my superhero,

Has destroyed the one I love the most.

My heart says no, do not separate

I’m your child, keep us together

But I look at you both,

Two paths, two lives, two souls

You, blaming yourself, suffering

Him, trying to escape, no sense actions

But you have forgotten one thing

I’m still your child
and I'm between you and him.

Butterfly and Alligator

Alligator always thought he could fly

He wanted to have wings

Like a butterfly

Butterfly wanted to be strong

Have big teeth,

she had wishes underneath

Alligator wanted to swim in the air

Touch the clouds

Get out of his lair

Butterfly wished she could be an alligator

Not to fear

She had all clear

One day, they both met

 at the island place

what heartbreaking case!

Let’s change our bodies- they said.

Alligator tried to fly around

But he fell down

Butterfly tried to scare a giraffe

But that made animals  

Have a good laugh

After failing tries

they decided to live together

no matter the weather

Butterfly on alligator’s back

Didn’t feel a snack

But ready to attack

Alligator wearing wings,

felt like kings.

What  a wonderful thing. 

by Tutinea ©

IN YOUR PRESENCE

I'm naked...thirsty
in front of your presence
with no words in my mouth
no wishes, no hopes
nothing to offer.

I'm naked...lost
my heart is empty
and my white clothes
have been removed
and I'm cold and tired.

I'm naked...needy
begging for your compassion
with nothing to hide,
here is the little girl-naked-
do you remember her?

I'm naked-waiting-freezing
where are your wings?
cover me!
where is the water?
give me to drink

I'm naked...unfilled
screaming in silence
-hungry-
where is the bread?
I'm--in your presence--naked.

The other one (your mistress)

before I die

I will breath

understand the whys

I see  this is not love

you lie and I let you do it

I'm between you and her

hidden as a shadow

reduce to a  microbe

a cockroach trying to pleasure you

my mind, heart, body

fighting in a civil war

sometimes my mind wins 

but you start the fight again

and my weakness is your best weapon

I've forgotten myself

what do I deserve?

I see you and her

but not me

not even on a picture

the weekend girl

the other one

the one you want but not enough

and I'm dying

my soul is consumed

I don't have tears left

my body has become my enemy

and every Monday

I hate myself

I call for help

I'm still here

waiting, what?

you...a change..to wake up

I'm between your body and heart

you and her

but me? where is my heart

I don't see my eyes

reduce to nothing

feeling a piece of... fire

burning inside

with my lips closed, 

my tongue stuck

my thoughts forgotten

my feelings lost.

by Tutinea ©

citrus game

You get on my nerves,

you make me walk back and forth

pull my hair off

and even  yell

you make me blame myself

not knowing why

but I let you play

hate or love?

that's the game

Suddenly, a smile on my face

I feel silly, I protest

you like the hate

that seems to be cute

but I try to be hard

hard to get,

silence,

this is...

an endless game.

Summer

full bloom tulips
powerful breeze

colorful days

your coming from the north
they gave you back

magical sensation

smiles and laughs 

wonderful rainbows

your coming from the north
you are in your track

water and sunshine

early mornings

endless days

your coming from the north
light now they lack

Summer, my dear friend,

you're back

ONE DAY

One day,
I will touch
the sky
Have wings
to fly.
One day, 
I will jump
the gap
Be free to nap.
One day, 
I will smile
forever
Create a new
knowledge level.
One day,
 I will spin around
Bounce with my
crown.
One day,
I will have
a big grin on my face
Be full of
grace.

by Tutinea ©