The other one (your mistress)

before I die

I will breath

understand the whys

I see  this is not love

you lie and I let you do it

I'm between you and her

hidden as a shadow

reduce to a  microbe

a cockroach trying to pleasure you

my mind, heart, body

fighting in a civil war

sometimes my mind wins 

but you start the fight again

and my weakness is your best weapon

I've forgotten myself

what do I deserve?

I see you and her

but not me

not even on a picture

the weekend girl

the other one

the one you want but not enough

and I'm dying

my soul is consumed

I don't have tears left

my body has become my enemy

and every Monday

I hate myself

I call for help

I'm still here

waiting, what?

you...a change..to wake up

I'm between your body and heart

you and her

but me? where is my heart

I don't see my eyes

reduce to nothing

feeling a piece of... fire

burning inside

with my lips closed, 

my tongue stuck

my thoughts forgotten

my feelings lost.

by Tutinea ©